Its 3am in the morning...well..today i didnt went to sch coz i over slp...and in the end i end up crying again...wth...this time is coz its wed...its the day that i alws meet him before work...its the only day i can go meet him...Urgg...cant help it...den i tried to do something but i jus cant stop crying...i hate it...but cant help it...really miss those days...in the end..finally managed to use internet then i go online..chat with friends..finally feeling better...watch some anime..den prepare for work...

Before work...i sms ling ling, mon mon and kai ruo if they r working...coz with out them...i think ill be super bored...but they so sweet..still said they will c me at work..so i wont be bored..:) well..so at work..been talking to them coz manager and alot other supervisor not around...den manage to sneak to each other and chat...:)

Working really keeps myself busy...keeps my mind busy..if only i can alws be like this...so i wont feel hurt anymore...they really help me alot..g friends at work...or i may think of him again..coz i am working there becoz of him also...he introduce me the work...hai...really everything remind me of him...hai...well...after work..went to eat chicken wing with ling ling..she alws wan to eat things one..:P but she nvr gets fat!!not fair..haha..:Pwell..talk to her about relationship things and about my views...can feel that she understands alot of things..:) she is more stronger then me....altot both of us felt the same hurt from relationship...well..not really same...but its still hurt...hurt cannot be compared ok...so pls dun be so cruel to compare ppl's hurt of losing someone u love...haix....

After tat..took train home..coz lingling staying at yishun...den i continue down to my area by train...super long trip...but at least gt sometime keeping me company..:) and old friend sms me also...:)lucky due to him i didnt really cry after i reach home..haha..well..not tat i wanted to cry...but saw something i cant believe..and super confuse...

HE..put his msn nick...IN WHITE FONT..which is invisible actually ... "hmm...wan to see u everyday:D..." ..this paticular nick...he used it when we jus gt tgt...it feels like HE has someone alrdy...and its only been 3 days since we break up...CAN U BELIEVE? T.T...i hope im just over reacting....but a small part of me hope it is for me...haix....I feel so stupid...i told some of my friends online...they told me to ask him myself...but u see..if i ask...he may not tell me...or let me know...he may even jus say.." Y u so KPO.." thats his 'SPECIAL' weapon to shut ppl up...whats worst...what if he really gt someone else...haix...I hate myself for being like this...BUT I CANT HELP IT~! i still care about him...but i dun wan to be so weak...SO CONFUSING....but one thing is for sure....

I still care about every little thing about him...
I still love him....